Thanksgiving Day I was anxiously checking Facebook because I knew everyone was at Mom’s except me and my family, I wanted to be there. Late in the day FINALLY someone posted some pictures, and I laughed when I saw the giant table snaking through the family room
I scrolled through some more pictures and saw one of Brooklyn in her tee shirt that said: Only Child expires 2013……..I laughed some more. Dang I wish I had been there for that announcement.
The next day I got a text from mom saying Brooklyn had a tumor on her kidney. And then the bottom fell out of everything. More and more bad news, more and more texts saying worse and worse things. Mom trying to talk to me on the phone, but who can talk when they are crying?
We are Disselkamps! We love each other so fiercely! We are special…..so how can this happen????
Daniel, you are my baby brother, I rocked you for hours when you had colic as a baby, I helped shoo you to bed on Christmas Eve so Santa could come, I tied your shoes, I worried about you when you were sick. I still can scarcely believe you are married with a baby, so how is it that now your baby has cancer? How are you going to make it?
Every parent’s nightmare is getting the news you got. And your nightmare got worse after every test was done…..you have always had the biggest heart of all of us……and the biggest hearts break the hardest.
When I saw you at the hospital…..and we sobbed in each other’s arms….and I told you I would take it all away if I could……I meant it. My heart is breaking for you. It’s agony to see someone you love in so much pain. It’s agony not to be able to take it away.
But….there are 13 of us, and Disselkamps are strong. And we love each other. Remember when you said to mom, “Momma, I need you to work one of your miracles”?…….it’s because you know it can happen, and we’re going to help.
Sitting in the family room at the hospital, we talked about the help you and Erin are going to need. You’re going to have to be off work. You have bills to pay. Mom said, “As soon as every test is in, and the doctors make the game plan, and we know exactly what we are facing, and what the treatment is going to be, we are going to sit down with Dan and Erin and and her parents and we’re going to determine what needs to be done. We are going to make sure they don’t hurt for money, they are NOT going to lose their house if they can’t work.” So Daniel, rest easier and concentrate on your sweet sunshine, and let us do the rest.
Remember when I told you before I left the hospital, “Don’t be disappointed if your prayers don’t end in an instant miracle. Sometimes those prayers are answered in little ways, like the fact that Brooklyn’s team of doctors is now headed up by the Chief of Oncology at Kosair Children’t Hospital.”……..that’s a prayer answered Daniel, you couldn’t ask for better care than that.
You have 12 brothers and sisters, and we have your back. We won’t give up this fight. We are Disselkamps…….we are Brooklyn Believers! We love you three……you are our hearts.
Your big sister……Selina
And for anyone who would like to help my baby brother and his little family, please donate to them, even the smallest amount will help. This is going to be a long, hard fight. Please help them.